Wednesday, January 8, 2014

Medical School Applications - ADVICE NEEDED

I'm stuck in a dilemma, unsure of which direction I should go. I was wondering if any of you had any advice or know anyone I can speak with. I'd really appreciate any advice. 

Here's a brief synopsis - let me know if it makes sense and/or you need additional information. 

I graduated college with a B.S. in Biomedical Engineering. My biggest hurdle with applying to medical school was my MCAT score. This resulted in me going through the Caribbean route. Due to personal reasons, I had to withdraw from the Caribbean school and attend to those issues. Now that they are solved, I'm ready to get back into school. 

At this point in time, I have two options: 
1) Apply/Transfer to another Caribbean med school
2) Come back to the US, start from square 1

My dilemma with the first option is - I don't want to go through the whole Caribbean Med school process again. Their methods and ways are not very conducive to learning. And as always, being an IMG applying for residency is never promising. 

My dilemma with the second option is - I'd have to start with square 1 and that includes retaking my MCAT. Because I haven't done too well on it previously, it creates a negative image. Admittedly, I have come a long way between how I studied for the MCATs previously to now. But there is a lot of uncertainty involved. In addition, when applying to US Medical schools, it won't look too positive that I withdrew from a Carib school. I'm not even sure they'll take take into account my personal reasons, or just purely at the fact that I withdrew from a Carib school. I realize a lot of this depends on my MCAT score and I can do other things to boost my application, which will take a few years -- and I don't mind doing. But all said and done, if my withdrawal will still make my application have a red-X, I don't know if it's worth it. 

So here's my dilemma. Let me know if you have any tips/insight to this. I'd really appreciate any advice. Thanks in advance! 

Saturday, November 9, 2013

Relationships.. NEED ADVICE!

Hey blogosphere! I've been going through some unnecessary, relationship drama that I would love to hear your advice on! Please let me know what you think - and please be polite! Thanks =)

So things have been a little complicated with me and this guy. We knew of each other in college, but we literally NEVER said anything to each other. He was dating my friend senior year, so we crossed paths, but never quite spoke to each other. He’s good a computer/technology – so the only times I’d ever speak to him was if I needed help with my computer. After I graduated (May 2010), that summer every single computer at home had some problem or the other – so I was on and off talking to him about that. But that’s pretty much it. I don’t think it was sometime mid-2012 when we ever had a conversation that wasn’t technology related. I honestly don’t remember at all how or when we started a conversation that was not “help me with my computer.” But we started actually becoming friends (maybe Summer 2012)…and started talking a little more often and kept in touch. And (I think exactly a year ago, sometime Nov 2012) last year he told me that if I were in Chicago, he probably would have asked me out by now and he expressed that he liked me. We were in different places…so that didn’t really go anywhere. But we remained in touch, and I think it was towards the latter part of last semester where we became a little closer and especially over the summer to where we spoke every day. But, we have not been stable by any means – last semester was a LOT of up and downs between us. The summer and the beginning of this semester have been pretty good, though. I’m sure you know where this story is going – I started liking him. But since life is Bollywood Movie – let’s add a little twist.

My friend from high school moved to Chicago in August to start her PhD, so she asked me if I had any friends in Chicago. Most of my closest friends aren’t there anymore except for him – so I told her about him and they met up. And now they talk ALL the time and meet up practically every weekend.  I’m sure you know where this is going…

So here’s a bit of a back story – for us to date, I’ll definitely need to talk to my parents about it. He’s completely different from my religion and culture. I don’t want to start dating him until I get the approval from my parents, because it’ll cause so many more complications within my family if it gets serious between us, and I tell them then. It’s a little complicated… I finally told my mom about him in September, and she was kind of back and forth – but she eventually said to wait until I’m physically in the states to talk to my dad. And it’s not a discussion I can have when I’m in the states for a couple weeks during vacation, and then leave again. Since I have 1 more year left in the Caribbean, she said to wait to talk to my dad then. Which is fine – because I really don’t want to have a long-distance relationship, when we’ve never really spent time together at all, and he doesn’t want that either.

We actually had an extremely horrible patch last couple of weeks and weren’t really talking. We finally spoke last Monday, and things have gotten SO much better. I don’t think they’re quite as they were, but definitely getting much better. But during those two weeks of us not really talking, he and my friend started talking a lot more, like multiple hours a day. And during those two weeks, I could NOT get in touch with my friend at all. I didn’t want to talk to her about this whole complication, because she’s told him things that were only meant to be between us. But, I just wanted to talk to her, just to catch up. Apparently, he was complaining about me so much during those weeks – that she was afraid that I was going to be doing the same, so she ignored all of my ways to contact her.

I guess I’m just extremely irritated (and definitely jealous) at her. Firstly, shouldn’t she talk to me before you talk to him! We’ve been friends since high school, and she JUST met him a month ago! I am also really upset she told him things that were meant to be between us. And she’s doing things to him that she’s NEVER done to me. Like, make him a 3ft by 2ft Diwali card, make inside joke memes of his pictures, calls him ALL the time, everyday (this girl DOES NOT talk on the phone with anyone, it takes a lot for to even call her parents), tell him stories that I don’t even know about, etc etc. I just want to tell her to back off a little. If I was in her spot, I would NEVER allow myself to get so close to someone that things are complicated with my best friend; I would definitely keep my distance. I mean she JUST met him, and I only told her about him in August; I didn’t even mention him before. And especially when things had gotten so bad that we weren’t talking – I would not ditch my friend’s effort to contact me and talk more to the guy. And obviously, I’ve become very jealous at how close they are. He’s told me they talk a lot, but definitely not close and that he’s closer to me. But I feel it’s just a matter of time. And things are definitely a lot easier and “less complicated” to go out with her than me. So I don’t know…

My natural tendency in these situations is to remove myself. But I really don’t want to do that. I don’t want to lose him, and I don’t want to fight with my friend! I feel like the absolute tiniest person in the world for being jealous and irritated. And bringing up this topic would only create unnecessary drama, which I don’t need right now, especially after having those horrible two weeks, and with final exams a month away. I’ve told myself, there’s nothing I can do – but I JUST HAVE TO be okay with things. We’ve been through so many ups and downs in this past year, that if we can make it through this next year, we’ll make it. If we don’t, we don’t. And if in the process, he and my friend start developing feelings and decide to go out, I’ll JUST HAVE TO be okay with it. Obviously I’m not, but I’ll just have to take it day by day.

Thursday, August 8, 2013

Settling In

I got back on the island Monday evening and I spent the following few days getting my things organized and settling in. For some strange reason, it feels weird to be back. It feels like I'm an outsider. I don't feel like I've already been here for a year. It may be due to the lack of students that are here already, as I came in a week early, but it's just weird. A friend of mine feels the same way as well. I wonder what it is...

Thursday, July 11, 2013

Next semester?!

This post is VERY delayed. I didn't want to post anything until I knew my results for sure. And then I went out of town so I didn't get a chance to post sooner. But, long story short - I MADE IT!!! I made the grade I needed to FINALLY move onto the next semester!!!!!!!! I know I make it sound like I've achieved something awesome, but it was a difficult feat for me. I'm so excited to finally be able to move onto the next semester and start learning topics that interest me. I have about a month left of vacation before I head back, so I'm trying to utilize as much of it as possible to read a little ahead on what's coming up. I'm not trying to learn EVERYTHING, but getting acquainted with terminology and such. AHHH SO EXCITING!!!! Can't believe it actually came true!!

Thank you all for all your positive wishes and vibes. When times were in the dumps, it was staying positive that helped me get past this and I'm truly grateful. Thank you!

Sunday, May 5, 2013

Almost there...

It's the second to last weekend before the final exam, so in medical school world - Panic starts. Every second, every minute, every hour is extremely precious. We had a few mishaps this weekend in regards to the internet (something you have to deal with living on an island), but it was okay. Everyone around me was freaking out, but luckily I print everything out, so I wasn't too affected. In fact, it was a pretty good weekend. There have been a few lectures that I've had a hard time synthesizing and thus, procrastinated going over. I met up with a friend this weekend and we both dissected it out together, and it was like a thousand light bulbs just went on in our heads. And we were so incredibly focused while studying. Not a minute did we get off track or look our phones or anything. It seriously felt great! I also had many review sessions with my roommate and her friends - and that went well too. They don't need to get as high of a grade on this exam, so it was more big picture, linking concepts together with them. It was good review for me so I'm glad I did it. So this allowed me to go through a lot of lectures and actively study.

Recently, I've realized that I'm just a lot more efficient in the morning, regardless of how much I've napped throughout the day or how much coffee I've inhaled. So I've been trying to go to sleep by midnight and wake up by 5:30am, being at the library by 6:30am. I haven't done it everyday, but I've been able to at least get myself up early. It's been working out really great, the day seems so much longer and I just get so much accomplished. I even went to the library one morning when it was pouring down rain and my local phone was damaged because of the water. (I feel like a deserve an award or something for being that dedicated - haha!)

In general though, if I had to take the exam tomorrow, I definitely think I can get at least an 80%. It's the extra 16 more points that I'm aiming to solidify in these last few days. I feel like so many people would be freaking out if they were in my position right now, but I'm not. I don't know if it's a good thing or bad thing. I'm worried and nervous for sure, but not freaked out. I know for me, this is not necessarily a bad thing, but I tend to be more efficient when I'm not stressing out. I hope this efficiency carries me through the week and into next week.

I've been meeting with my learning strategist, and when I explain concepts to her - she says I'm going to really like physiology because I tend to think like that. And she's not the only one to say that - so many of my friends have told me that. I'm actually really excited to take physiology and neuroscience - which are all classes in the second semester. I just hope hope hope I can make it there. I don't think I've ever been so excited about taking classes as I am right now. The more I study biochem, the more interesting it becomes. Obviously with a full class load, it's hard to put in so much time, but I've truly been enjoying biochem.

I wish all the very best to others entering their final exam period! Good luck to us!! 

Wednesday, April 10, 2013


I met with my biochemistry course director on Friday about a few questions I had while working on practice questions. It went well! She was really helpful and was very happy with my improvement in the class. While talking to her, it was evident that she had been checking up on me and knew exactly what I made on the midterm and what I need on the final. She gave me a very positive feeling for my upcoming challenges. Even though I'm trying to stay positive throughout all of this, it really helps when your course director is on your side!

This weekend I made dinner for my roommates, Stir-fry, nothing too fancy. But it was nice sitting down for dinner together!

Hope everyone is having a great week! I can't believe it's almost the weekend again!!!!!!!

Tuesday, March 26, 2013

and onward

So midterms came and left. I didn't do amazing on my biochem midterm, but I didn't do absolutely awful either. I got a 84. Basically, I need a 96 on the final to get an A in the class. It's tough, yes. Probably close to impossible, yes. But, it's NOT impossible and I know people (a couple friends actually) who have gotten 95+ on the final exam. I'm keeping my spirits high, trying to work very hard, and hopefully my efforts will pay off. That's all I can really do at this point - work hard and hope that luck is in my favor.

That's what's new with me! Thought I'd let everyone know!